Epiphanies, revelations, alterations to a set worldview

I suppose the reason for maintaining radio silence is a gradual shift in not only my political views, but the entirety of my worldview, alongside the end of my exams. It is also fear - of backlash, "cancellation", and the diminishing of my already very small, but dearly beloved readership because of this shift. I know that my views have always verged on the borderline of controversy, but now, I presume by today's standards, as they stand currently, would be labelled outrageous; that too, not in a positive sense.

Coming to this realisation; series of realisations rather, and questioning everything I had ever known, or rather, perceived as fact, left me speechless, or without words, and continues to do so at varying points in time, and, whilst I do find myself more articulate (something I very much appreciate), I have found myself far more cautious about whom I discuss these revelations with. This is where the paradox resides - I wish to discuss my views, openly, with all willing to engage in such discourse, but unfortunately, the stringently and societally enforced idea of political correctness has led me to box my beliefs, upon a plethora of topics, within a treasure trove of sorts. Furthermore, many of the parleys I have engaged in, have only established a fracturing of human reason (a paradox I shall not delve into just this moment), and a mountainous attack with words - usually expressing some sort of shock, disapproval, or anger - perhaps if I'm lucky, I'll be met with utter silence in await of elaboration (such instances are very much so rare).

I cannot credit one singular lecture, philosopher, ideology, or thought, which prompted this monumental shift (I cannot truly emphasise the extent to which my view was altered by something as simple as a shift in perspective). It's also only made more obvious how much I do not know, and never shall. Ignorance is something I despise, but nobody can deny that we are all hermetically sealed, both collectively and individually in bubbles of it, sometimes blissful in their elusiveness. Our unawareness of them at times only serves to worsen their conditions when they collide; however, they may, in very specific instances, improve quality of thought upon certain few subjects, such as religion. Nonetheless, coming to terms with the fact that learning more only makes one more painfully aware of how little one truly knows, and will ever be able to learn, is something that has contributed to this epiphany.

Having consumed content from "both sides of the aisle" has also been apt in bringing upon this new way of thinking. Having never thought about certain topics with a completely different approach perhaps made my realisation profoundly short lived at first, however, when I began thinking of the introduction of new concepts, not as large rocks which brought about the shattering of my worldview, but rather as new, foundations added to a creaking structure, heaving with exhaustion as my "old beliefs" slowly crumbled and decayed, my experiment finally began. As I dove deeper into media consumption and academic discourse on differing matters, beliefs of mine I once thought would never budge, began to shift, slowly at first, and then picked up pace - and it was truly an awakening in the truest sense of the word. However, as this "condition" persisted, disillusionment set in, words faltered, as did my thoughts as A-levels approached. After my exams, I suppose my disillusionment had reached its peak - so I merely tried to stop thinking about what were now mind-boggling topics, but failed miserably. This brought upon a slump, of thought, and reading, which once I pulled myself out of, led me to the dilemma that lays before me today; to write, or not to write?

I have thus come to the painstaking conclusion that in an attempt to conceptualise my thoughts on varying topics, I endeavour to publish a series of successive articles exploring said issues, which I shan't list by name just yet, only because I wish to see an authentic reaction to them. I do hope you stick around to read them.